Here it is, guys! Finally! :D

There are so many people who comment my stories, and so many people who add me and I never really keep good enough track of these things, so here we go!

If you add me, leave me a comment here! I don't care or mind if discussions erupt in here, random fangirlings, whatever. And don't worry, this is not a friend locked journal and never will be. I just want to get to know you guys more if you want to talk to me. ♥

so i was having kind of a shit day (people are srsly dumb and need to stop) but then this happened.




i love how much fail happens to me on a daily basis. also, the mystery machine was in the parking lot at my work. and i'm so not even kidding. hopefully tomorrow's training won't be terribly boring, and then i get the weekend off! \o/

i am already starting to sense the downside that will come with working in the same place as my mother.

my boss-to-be(? lol) told my mom that he would probably have me come in for training on wednesday. by the time i got back home yesterday he had left a message on the machine, and i called back but he was gone for the day. my mother woke me up at 7 THIS MORNING to call him back. he wasn't there yet, so when she left for work, she hassled him until he said i could come in today. I DO NOT WANT TO COME IN TODAY, MOTHER. I SLEPT FOR 4 HOURS. I AM IN NO WAY READY FOR JOB TRAINING. OMFG.

so much rage about this. and i'm so tired i feel like i'm going to like collapse or something. )< do not want ever. the only upside is that apparently i don't have to go back until friday after this and my hair looks pretty osm after showering this morning lol. if you can't tell i'm putting off leaving. do not waaaaant slkfjslfkjkjgf -flails-

randomness, but I'M GOING TO IU NEXT YEAR~~ so excited, seriously. cannot even try to contain myself. 8D i didn't think it would actually happen but it is and i have orientation later this month and just omfg~~~ 

i think i'mma go finish getting ready and call my mom to see if i can go out there and get this shit done yet -__- blehhhh.

sooo i came home from hanging out with some friends today to discover that home depot FINALLY called about me starting training. unfortunately their timing sucks cause my axel comes back from europe tonight and if i start training in the morning... just, epic fail. D: wants to see friends desu.

in other news, i really suck at writing lately. i mean, the writing itself isn't bad but i suck at getting motivated enough to actually do it, lol. i need another push of inspiration like yoosutic 8D 

umm this is a pointless entry. i'm considering diving into 2PM fandom. y/n? 

that's about all.

remember how i was in a bad mood? then i talked to yuxi. it was surprisingly serious until i failed so hard that i hurt from laughing.


roxas      says:
i was reading up on it and apparently he did almost the same thing during the clinton pregnancy
            roxas      says:
then he just kinda shut up until now
yuxi - made me smile. says:
LOL
            roxas      says:
and he's just bawwing or sth
yuxi - made me smile. says:
clinton pregnancy?
yuxi - made me smile. says:
i'm confused
yuxi - made me smile. says:
LOL
            roxas      says:
... OH MY GOD
            roxas      says:
I MEANTTO SAY
yuxi - made me smile. says:
LMFAO
yuxi - made me smile. says:
THAT'S WHAT I THOUGHT
yuxi - made me smile. says:
PRESIDENCY!?
yuxi - made me smile. says:
LMFAOOOOOOO

i always find myself annoyed with what seem to be small, trivial things. right now, there are a fair bit of them.

i'm annoyed because i have to babysit this kid again next week. i want to get my hair cut like NOW but i can't since the hair salon doesn't open again until monday and i'll be babysitting from the time it opens to the time it closes. tuesday too. my friends continue to do things without inviting me and then don't respond when i ask if they want to hang out, etc. my shoulder popped the other day and now hurts/my arm feels weird, though i'm probably worrying over it more than i should be. i have no plans at all for tomorrow.

if you cannot tell, i am in a bad mood. it may be better for myself and the world if i simply go to bed and, hopefully, wake up happier tomorrow.

title: (in)complete
author: xiahki 
pairing: yoosu
rating: nc-17
genre: smuttt
summary: let’s do it. it starts now, open your eyes. what you haven’t seen till now, drown yourself in my charisma.

a/n: omfg i haven't written smut in MONTHS. SERIOUSLY, MONTHS. the last time i wrote it was in february, so pardon me if i'm a little rusty D: this will probably make its way to my writing journal eventually, but not yet. i need to see if anyone even cares about fic anymore first :'D umm yeah i was inspired by yoosu doing xiahtic. srsly wonderful, boys. ♥ that's about it ... i hope you enjoy!!


( you've never experienced fantasy. )

i feel like i spend way too much of my time feeling depressed and completely alone. i hate it when i get like this. i hate it when i suddenly feel like complete shit and i start crying for no reason and i can't bring myself to stop.

it always seems to happen when there's absolutely nobody available to talk to. it always seems to end up making me feel so much more alone. and the stupidest things set me off.

my mom asked me if i wanted to go out to dinner with them. i showered and such so i would be dressed if i did want to, but then my stomach started hurting and i was just in a bad mood and i told her i didn't want to go.

stepdad: "oh, god forbid you go anywhere. you haven't been out all week, so you shouldn't go." 

sarcastic, of course. but he seemed excited enough that they could go to a restaurant i don't like since i decided not to go. as soon as they left, i started crying. i wish i knew what the hell was wrong with me.

title: happily ever after
author: xiahki
pairing: yoosu
rating: r
warning: mentions of drug use and prostitution.
summary: a little piece of something from the same universe as my bigbang fic, heaven. junsu wants a happily ever after more than anything, but everything comes at a price.

a/n: i haven't written fic in so long. so. so. long. and this is really short and probably crap but my muse wanted to start it and so i just kinda let it go. it's more of a drabble than anything, really angsty and depressing, but at least it's something. ♥


( he would never understand that junsu couldn't be a happily ever after )

mkay, so. as you guys prooobably know from my entries before, my sora came to visit this weekend with her friend sao. and we had sooo much fun. ♥

we were gonna go to a foam party at this nightclub kinda place called fusion ... but then it FAILED. like, everywhere. seriously there were not many people there at ALL and there was practically no foam. so we were like ummmmm awkward and we decided to just walk around instead. but then everything was closed so we went to mcdonald's and then came back to my house to chill and watch ADVENT CHILDREN COMPLETE SKDJSLFJDLKJD THE PRETTIES *___*

yeah we stayed up until 7 in the morning doing that. x__x guh. but then today we watched demyx time and went to the mall in casual cosplay before they had to go home. it was fun. and sora ate like a 2000 calorie chocolate bunny which was AMAZING. and we got it on film. so. yes.

this weekend was fun.

OHYEAH. i got accepted. to IU. yesterday. they sent me an email telling me i was accepted off the waiting list and i would be getting info in the mail and i want to go SO FUCKING BAD. the problem is we already applied for my loans at purdue and my mom is extremely unsure about trying to switch it around. but i want to. so so so so SO bad. so we'll see what happens. i'm sure i'll keep everyone posted. 8D 

um, that's about all i have to say. time for me to go do nothing for like the rest of the night since my parents went to a concert that i KNEW NOTHING ABOUT and left me here alone. -___- fail.

leave it to me to be a frakking emo bucket after one of the most fun weekends evar. of course, idk where this came from but i just need to get it all out somewhere. if you don't want to read it, i really won't be offended. this is for my benefit, and i'll post a more appropriate entry afterwards.


( angst angst angst )

remember how i used to fail hilariously while talking to sazz all the time and then post about it?

xiahki : cries wow i'm a reatrd
xiahki : ...
xiahki : ):
applesu : LMFAO
applesu : i love you ♥


my mood has improved considerably.
also just unlocked all traits on the sims. PYROMANIA YES. now i can finally make axel :D :D :D 

well. my emotions are seriously fucked and i'm about to emo it out. you've been warned.


( +++ )

posting and actually updating what? yeah, it's been much too long since i posted anything of worth, haha~

hmm so summertime is really frakking boring. the more days i have to just sit here the more i'm like wtf am i even existing here for. luckily, i got a job? i'm gonna be a cashier for the home depot ... woo lumber? 8D i don't start for like another couple of weeks or sth though. i had to go in and get drug tested today and now they have to wait for my results before they schedule me for orientation.

i also went on birth control pills. i was terrified of them, but they don't give me any side effects and apparently they're going to help my body stop being a big blob of fail, so yay? 8D

umm OHMYJESUS there was a frakking TORNADO here yesterday. like wtf i almost had a heart attack because myself and anoukinparis  were out DRIVING IN IT CAUSE WE HAD NO IDEA lmfao cries. good times, good times.

i got the SIMS 3 TODAY SJFKLJDLGLKDJLKJGF. it is so beyond epic, idek. just ... just amazing. i can't get enough of it. you can customize everything, down to the voice. THE VOICE. SLDKJSFLKJFLKDJ ♥

also, because i have decided to just fucking FORCE myself back into writing...

( for sazz 8D )

I GRADUATED!!!! 8D

yup, i finally made it! thank you so so sooo much to those of you who congratulated me and whatnot. it definitely made me happy. :3

so, now that highschool's over forever, i'm gonna take some time to chill and hopefully crank out a fic or two. i need to get back into the swing of writing, and back into being online all the effing time! yayness!!! \o/

hay guys! i'm 18! \o/ is it pathetic that i was looking forward to my birthday on lj cause the birthday posts make me smile? and then i was sad? ;__;

anyways, finals started today! i have them every day this week except friday, which is graduation practice. then graduation saturday, and i'm done! as long as i pass chem, that is. =__=

but, i'm planning on bombarding my journal with writings soon after the stress of finals is gone, so look out for that. >D 

also, i got a pink taser from my grandmother. not kidding. at all. wtf.

this is just a quick little post, while i have some time.

basically, i've failed at being on livejournal for quite a while, and i just want to apologize. senior year is like RAWR and i've had so many final projects to do, i've been drowning in stress and homework. xD

i just want to say that i haven't dropped out of this fandom. i'm still around, and i'm graduating this upcoming weekend, so then hopefully i'll be able to be more active again. ♥

so, i'm still still alive! i've just been drowning in homework, senior year, etc. not exactly fun but, y'know, what can you do?

today was the due date for most of the stuff i've been stressing over. namely my senior memory book, which is this HUGE scrapbook that we have to make as a final sort of project for english class. but now it's done, and tomorrow morning i'm leaving for acen! i can't wait! \o/

what else can i say? oh, um, so lastnight at my school we had this GPA dinner thing where all the seniors with a GPA of 3.0 and above can invite any teacher and it's just a nice little thing ... and uh, mr. shaw came. it was amazing and i haven't cried that much in ... forever, lmao. but it was seriously the best night of my entire senior year. i don't think anything can top that, emotionally.

i really freaking love super junior right now. i keep getting more and more into them and sldjkslfkjdg idek i just LOVE them so much. they're adorable, and their songs are so awesome. monster = win. forever.

also JUNSU IN A WHEELCHAIR DDDDDDD: i hope he gets better soon. but srsly, how can he still be so adorable even when he's crippled? ♥

i'm having issues with my social life. mostly, i'm working on myself. i'm trying not to care as much. i think it's working, which makes me feel pretty good about myself.

i saw L, change the worLd today on the big screen, right in the second row. it was amazing. i want every night of my life from now on to consist of kenichi on the big screen, seriously.

i'm gonna do this meme now that i stole from sazz. 8D


( a b c  )

hummmdlksjflkjljgf so i'm still alive, kind of. i went to atlanta last thursday - sunday with my wind ensemble and had an amaaaaaazing time. we got to go to an orchestra concert and do all kinds of unbelievably band nerd-y things, and then it hit me how amazing it is that there are so many of us that love music. i know it sounds geeky or something, but it honestly took me by surprise. i'm lucky to have it in my life and to be able to play with such a wonderful group of people, yay. ♥

in other news, i'm sicksicksick and it's gross. my sinuses are all FUCK YOU and so i'm laying in bed like DDD; whyyy. i'm missing yet another day of school and hoping that i haven't reached my limit yet. i have to miss next friday for acen! 

i feel a little guilty for the lack of OMGDBSK! in my life atm. i'm writing a fic though, which is a good thing, i think. it should hopefully be decent, seeing as how it's been about a million years since i've written anything. DD: 

applesu  is coming to visit me on the 24th of next month and i am so. freaking. excited. we are going to have crazyawesome times, i can feel it.